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September 1991. [05 September 2010 @ 1:29am] so, ok- i have this new friend, his name is ernie... do you know him? do you know me? oh my goodness, i didn't even introduce myself!!! i'm hannah abbott, but you can just call me hannah, or whatever you'd like, really. if you see me around, well i wear my hair in ponytails a lot, so you might recognize me from that. i don't know. but ANYWAY- my new friend, ernie, he and i were drawing today in the common room and i just wanted to share our picture with all of you. ( our art ) (50) read | comment

unsent letter #1 [02 July 2010 @ 3:43am] [ music | kasey anderson - i still miss someone ] [private] dear justin, i miss you. this... this whole thing of not being your friend, it makes me ache. nothing will get clean like it's supposed to. i scrub until the blisters on my palms open, 'til the bruises on my knees are rubbed raw and i've broken my nails so short that my fingers bleed... but none of these physical pains can detract or lessen this internal ache... this absence of you. merlin, i miss you so that i've run out of tears. i don't stop crying when the tears run dry... no. instead it's become a fit of dry, shoulder-racking sobs until i'm feeling somewhere between heartache and hysteria, and i'm not sure if i'm laughing or crying anymore. and i can't talk to you, and i can't tell you that you were right... because i was so certain, so smug, so superior... so angry. angry because you took yourself away from me... because you popped this fragile cocoon of happily-ever-afters that i had created for myself... and then you didn't stick around to catch me when i fell. angry because i pushed you away, because even as the curtain was unraveling i wanted to believe in the fairy tale. angry because i lost you, and i could have had you, and i didn't even realize... but it doesn't matter. i can't tell you this, and i can't send this letter and you'll never know how truly sorry i am. you'll never know that i miss you, that there's this hole in my heart where you used to be. and i'll never feel your hand in mine again, and we'll never get to dance like we used to... and maybe it seems silly for me to miss you, when we had but moments together after so many years apart. but this is different. because even when you were... up there, i still felt like there was some part of you that could feel me. that in some secret dream you knew that i never forgot you, and that my prayers were with you. and now... your feet are back on the ground and you're so close but it's silent, and you don't hear me anymore. you cannot hear my heart crying out what my brain didn't understand, what my eyes couldn't see, what it kept hidden from even me. and these words that i write will never be seen by you, because we're not friends... and it's because of me. oh... i guess there's still some tears left after all. ♥ hannah comment

[26 April 2010 @ 2:30pm] “we are not the same persons this year as last; nor are those we love. it is a happy chance if we, changing, continue to love a changed person.” (11) read | comment

[25 April 2010 @ 3:56pm] היי? לך תזדיין. (17) read | comment

[21 April 2010 @ 11:19pm] [Private to Self, but the hex is weak and could probably be seen by other people] shit. shit shit shit. i think i broke- OK. don't panic. just... where am i going to find a refrigerator repairman at this time of night? maybe i can just- how much does a refrigerator cost? crap, there's all this frozen stuff- how long do freezing charms last? although... my hover charm obviously didn't work... what's wrong with me? OK. i need help. magic's not working right and i've got a broken fridge. how am i supposed to tell darius i broke his fridge? how am i supposed to hide this??? shit. [added a few moments later] reparo didn't work. what is wrong with me??? [/private] (27) read | comment

[20 April 2010 @ 1:59pm] i'm officially an official officiant! that was fun to write. i should go into business or something. then maybe i wouldn't anyone else need someone to marry them? i promise to make my rates very competitive. hrm... what is the going rate for marrying people these days? (5) read | comment

[20 April 2010 @ 3:32am] can't sleep. [Private to Dare to Sally & Ernie to Dare to Sally to Dare to Self] i don't know if it's the anger or the baby or something else... i tried reading... it didn't help. normally i would appreciate the light-heartedness of this book, but tonight- i don't know, i guess i just find myself envious of the heroine. she's so carefree and frivolous and despite all her blunders her husband loves her for it. granted, it took three books before he became her husband, but still. she can spend money like there's no tomorrow and even though it makes him mad... inevitably he forgives her because she does something brilliant to make up for it, and because he loves her. ( i can't even bring myself to ask my fiance to pick up a pint of ice cream for me while he's out. ) [/private] maybe i'll try that warm milk trick. even though it sounds rather gross. (4) read | comment

[18 April 2010 @ 1:58am] i'm a little sad, because when we were at hogwarts i always got to be the first to say happy birthday to you. and now i know that you're going to wake up and see one of the greatest faces in the world- and knowing e there's going to be some extra special bonus to waking up to that... and then noah's going to come in and you'll probably have some amazingly adorable family birthday breakfast thing going... so i'm not going to get to be the first this year. or the second. but i hope that maybe i'm at least the third... even if it's only in written words... HAPPY BIRTHDAY, SALLY-ANNE PERKS almost MACMILLAN. welcome to the first day in the newest quarter of your life. i hope that it's every bit as full of wonderful moments as the first quarter was. you never cease to amaze me and i hope that i can always share in the talented & beautiful wonderful that is you. i love you, dear girl. may you continue to grow older but never ever change. (4) read | comment

[13 April 2010 @ 12:43am] [Private to Sally, Ernie, Dean, & Darius] i on second thought the amount of ok, now i'm starting to understand why i might have frustrated harry. everything else aside, i do have to say this. i think it's possible that roger davies might have our dear patricia oliver beat in terms of um... creativity. perhaps our favorite author might want to have an interview with him when working on the next book. although, i'm not sure i want to know half of this stuff. poor dare. oh wait, that sounded wrong. (7) read | comment

[12 April 2010 @ 7:07pm] i tried to follow jace rivers' advice on staying out of the gossip witch. apparently it doesn't work. you need a new how-to guide. really, i just want thank this gossip witch, whoever she is, for putting my situation in such delicate terms. truly, thank you. i hope that this child of mine (and other people's future children) will be a curious little bugger who goes back one day to read about what his or her parents were like and see these lovely little anecdotes you write about their lives. i'm sure that's just going to make their day. I TRULY WISH SARCASM COULD BE BETTER CONVEYED IN WRITTEN WORD. (3) read | comment

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